Trust in the LORD with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will direct your paths. Proverbs 3:5-6
It is a little bit difficult for me to write this week. I can't really tell why but I guess it has something to do with the lesson I am learning at the moment. It is very intimate, personal, and hard to put in words. I am learning to trust, to accept the unknown, being content with one step when I would like to see the whole staircase.
As hard as it is to trust, there is one great thing about it. Trust is the source of inner peace. And the inner peace is knowing that no matter what is being seen, felt of experienced at the moment, there is a greater force working behind the scenes. The force working on your behalf, working for you.
We are always given all that we need, nothing more and nothing less. Our part in the deal is to do as much as we can with it. Sure, it is easy when the things go well but we need to pay just as much attention and love to the moments that challenge us.
I had one of those nights this week when I woke up before dawn again and couldn't go back to sleep. I got up, sitting in the darkness and breathing in the crispy morning air that was coming in through the open door. And there it was again. It had happened a couple of times before, the words started to fill my mind randomly and I couldn't help but take a pen and paper to jot them down. I found myself writing about trust!
Trust is taking a brick that fell on your toe and building a house from it. When together their existence makes sense but you decide to see it in every single one as well.
And you see your walls now in the colours of your experiences!
Many, including myself, talk about breaking down the walls of separation but this week I looked at those same walls from a different perspective. Just like with everything else, the intention is the key.
We can build the walls to protect ourselves, hide behind them, or we can build a shelter, a lighthouse for others.
The shift happens when you trust that your current experience/situation is all that you need today to be able to move forward tomorrow.
Trust is not easy at all. In fact, it is more difficult for me than anything else. However, it helps me see the world more connected, life less disappointing, and hardships more meaningful. And don't let others tell you it is just a passive acceptance of what is. It actually sharpens your senses, makes you feel more alive, and teaches you about gratitude like nothing else I can think of.
I learn to trust again and just a thought of it fills me with peace and joy at the same time.
"Trust is to human relationships what faith is to gospel living. It is the beginning place, the foundation upon which more can be built. Where trust is, love can flourish. " Barbara Smith